Winnie Chan's Testimony

The word Jesus Christ occurred to me when I was fifteen. My girlfriend tried speaking to me about Jesus several times. I tended to stop her whenever she tried to introduce me the good news. I was self centered and unwilling to open up to others then. I was also very superstitious because of my Buddhist family background. There were times that I would hide myself at a corner and cried on my own whenever I imagined that all my family members were gone – I was so afraid of loneliness. The world seemed so dark and unknown for me!

On the other hand, my girlfriend was always cheerful. I didn’t understand why and desired to know the reason behind her joy and peace. That made me even more curious about her God. I decided to ask her more and she did tell me more. I remembered so clearly that I was studying in the library with my girlfriend one day. It was the time during our lower forms’ major examination. I was so tensed and worried about not being able to finish my revision. I was so lost and felt as though I was the only person facing such difficulties. I pleaded for help and it all came so suddenly. We left the library immediately and my girlfriend asked if she could pray for me. At that instant, I didn’t reject her offer; instead I took the opportunity to ask her more about GOD. My girlfriend explained the good news to me and asked me to open my heart to GOD. At that moment, I felt I was being taken care of by a loving Father. I realized that I have found HIM and could rely on HIM.

I confessed to Him and felt that HE was so close and caring. My life was no longer the same as before – I had been feeling sinful whenever I hid my personal feeling from GOD or others; I was not able to face Him then because of my sin. I used to pretend to be someone I was not. The most obvious change in me after I started to trust in the LORD was that I would never intentionally hide my feelings again. I know now I am not alone anymore for GOD is always looking after me.

I thank God that HE has chosen me and I truly thank HIM that HE has always been patient with me. HE is just and always loves me. I am now becoming more understanding, more willing to open up myself and fearless of being lonely. Besides, I realize I would not be alone especially I know that HE will always listen to my prayer. I am no longer afraid of thinking of losing my family members. I know that fear can be overcome by diligent praying and trust in HIM. It works miraculously for me. It is a real blessing to me and my husband and I want to praise His name and loving kindness. Halleluiah!